new ME

uhuk uhuk.. ya allah berhabuk nye..
blog sape la ni.. sian nye..hehehe...



sori la my baby blog..for so long holiday..huhu..
i'm so busy with study week n exam week n everything..



but today i'm bloging as a new title..

DR NUR DIYANA MD HADIS

thank u allah for letting this finally happen.. i still cannot believe it..
mama always said to me..that she know i will pass just the path is more difficult than others..
there no words to tell of how grateful i am..



alhamdullilah ya allah..ko telah makbulkan 1 lg permintaan ku..walaupun aku slalu leka n berbuat khilaf tp kau tidak pernah manghampakan ku..kau sentiasa membantu aku..akhirnye aku dpt khabarkan berita gembira utk ibubapa ku..ini lah hadiah yang x ternilai..aku bersyukur sgt2 ya allah..terima kasih ya allah..amin..



actually there is so many people i should thanks..they always there for me when i need it..they never stop support me n pray for me..



thanks to mama n babah..sebab x penah putus doakan along..ma,along da jd doctor ma..semua ni ats doa mama..thanks for wake me up every morning..for belive in me..n now i miss u so much..i cant wait to see u,to hug u..thanks so much to angah n adik as well..to maktok n baktok..to all my family..i love u all..



i wanna thanks to both my lovely besties..to sya,thanks u so much..u are the best study partner ever..thanks for helping me with my viva..walaupun ko ngtk n tersenggok2+skt kepala, ko thn sbb aku..aku x kan lupe semua tu..thanks for be there for me when i need it..n sorry sbb wat ko risau psl aku..seyesly i'm gonna miss u DR ISYA NIA..to nurul,u are the best roomate+fren forever..thanks sebab tiap2 mlm bwk kitorg kua mkn..bli kan mknn,support ktorg,doakan ktorg,n thanks denga kn result aku..aku akn sentiasa doakan ko gak..kite akn same grad thn ni..aku nk sgt g penang ngan ko kan..thanks a lot my dentist DR NURUL FAHIZHA..u guys rocks..



to my love one..u still there eventhough i'm so busy all this while..not spending time for u..n thanks gak sbb thn ngan kerenah ayg..thank u so much..



to all my fren..wether u pass or not..thank u so much..thanks for all ur wishes n prays..finally it happen guys.. to my study group members..so happy we all finally make it..thanks guys..as doc always mention,be a safe doctors..hopefully can work with u guys in the future..n not to forget to all my lecturers..jasa mu akan ku kenang..chewah...



so many words 'thanks' in this post..coz that is how i feel..n that the only thing i can offer to show how grateful i am..emm x mo nangis da..da byk da air mate aku abis..that it..so since i'm going home soon..i think i'll always updated my blog..hopefully la..hehe..

a wonderful time..

suddenly...

while brg2..I feel this one feeling..

i miss BESUT..seriously..huhh

i miss sore shu xuan pekik pg2..haha..

i miss our activities after abis class..facebooking..wif our own fav posture..huhu..

i miss bising2 sore msk2 kt dpr..

i miss kesejukan smpai mengigit tulang every subuh..

i miss the food there..coz im so boring wif cafe's food..

i miss sate jabi..nyum2..

i miss our leisure time activities..picnic and swimming...i miss a lot..

i miss everything..

just wanna share some pic of us there..

A JOURNEY BEGIN..

HERE EVERYTHING STARTED..

FAMILY MEDICINE IN KK BESUT

OUR FIELD VISIT..

OUR FUN TIME TOGETHER..

lata tembakah

LATA BELATAN

LA HOT SPRING

LAST WONDERFUL NITE..














i wish i could turn a time back..it was really2 fun that time.. we really enjoy ourselves there..but now its time to think about pr..no more main2..time to struggling n study..

chaiyuk guys..we can do it..

p/s:i've been compose this entry since last week..coz the internet is abit slow to upload the pic..so that y this entry is abit 'basi'..haha..

HAPPY BELATED BESDAY MAMA!!

i just feeling better today..just sometimes i feel my room is spining..i just got a chanche to write this entry..happy besday to my beloved mama..she's wonderful, she's my best fren...i love her so much..muaah..

HAPPY BESDAY MA!!

i just got better from diarrhea..severe diarrhea for 5 days..the severe one was a 1st day..with vomiting,fever,cough and very lethargy.. luckily my fren brought me to A&E that nite ..i been admitted to observation ward and and then was discharged..i thought i'll be ok the next morning..however, thing still da same.. still watery diarrhea and vomiting..my stomach was supermotility..grong..grong sound..owh i hate that..i wonder why all the medication was not working..but i still took it..



i'm so thankful to my best fren for taking care of me..buy me food..msg me..but the most important one is my mom..she so worried.. she even want to come here just to take care of me.. although deep in my heart, i want her to be here but i'm able to convience her that i'm ok..i felt guilty coz i sick on her besday.. i'm suppose to give a present but instead..hmmm..such a big present for her this year..huhu..she keep calling like 24/7..it was good coz at least someone know if i was collapse that time..i love u mom..n of course to all my groupmate..for asking about my condition and all the wishes..thank u so much guys..



i missed class for 3 days..n i'm not studying at all for this whole week..exam just really2 close my dear..u have to keep focus..no more play2..keep moving forward..

ABNORMAL

this is my 2nd week in besut for my distric posting a.k.a family and community medicine posting..i love besut so much..i mean i really feel like home here..coz we can cook what ever food we want to eat..surronded by people u love..betul2 cm zmn hostel dolo2..bgn pagi mengokol sejuk nk mati..best giler..i want to be here longer can i??huhu..tomorrow we have to go back to usm..so boring plus xde air..bosan bergande2..*sigh*

today we go to the lab in KK besut..to fullfileed our log book 'terchenta'..the staf was really kind (in fact all their staf are frenly and kind, not like Usm..no offense)..he explain everything and let us do the test and blood taking..as one of our requirement, we have to attach an abnormal result for urine and blood test..we have manage to get one pt with positive finding..n the staf help us print the result for each one of us..hehe..but we dont get any abnormal blood result..

unfortunately n suddenly i've become the pt..they decide to took my blood n my best buddy sya did it coz usually i'm a bit anemic..seb bek dpt..huhu..n bende yg jrg2 berlaku, i wish i'm anemic that time vs i wish i'm normal everytime i want to donate my blood..2 diffrent wishes..haha..n happy to say my Hb level is below normal=ABNORMAL..konon2 nye..for the sake of log book bangang i'm willingly give my hand to be poke..being in medical school make me done a lot of crazy n stupid thing.. a thing that u never thought before..

n beside my ABNORMAL blood test result, we've been suprised my another ABNORMAL result..this evening, we observe a stafnurse did the rapid HIV test..so cm bese we just stand there watching n be a good observer..huhu..n there's one couple who had been married in Thai n decide to 'remarried' here legally..the husband is IVDU and on methadone prog for almost 1 year if i'm not mistaken..prior to the test the couple seem nervous especially the wife since their knew the risk..the husband had done the test 3 times and pass all the test including this time..which mean he is negative.. for the moment..n when it comes to the wife, i saw a 2 lines in the kit..but i'm not really sure what it mean..i know 1 line is negative..n 2 lines is postitive..but the moment i saw it i was like..does positive really loke like that..i'm speechless at that time esp when i saw the nurse's face..

n it was a positive result..the step: if the screning turn to be positive u have to repeat the test by ELISA to confirm the result..positive screening can be false positive,however the rapid HIV test is 95% accurate..it is kind of weird how come the husband who is IVDU is negative n turn to be the wife is +ve..it can happen..anything is possible..kete pun bleh jth dlm KB mall..so anything is possible..i'm not going to judge..but the thing is i cant stop myself to think..how would u feel if the wife is u..i keep thinking about how their future might be..coz the pt is pregnant right now..how's the baby..the family members reaction..the community stigma..i just cannot imagine..i try to confort the pt but instead my eyes is bergenang..sebak..it make me realize that life is too short..one second u were normal n the next second u were told to be ABNORMAL..

BORING..

just a few days before we have an anaes exam which mean the end of boredness...haha..
no offense..i just dont feel 'into' anaes..even there are alot to learn.. i just cant enjoy it..for me i think it is a boring posting..sorry to said..huhu..

i miss A&E so so much.. i miss the environment..the enthusiastic to learn..the very,very good doctors..the kind nurses n MA.. i miss everything..seriously..i have never been so exciting n x nak blk during oncall except A&E..i can stand for 8-9 hours in that super cold room..coz i love it..huh..i miss it..=(

PADAN MUKE

last weekend is really full with open house n jamuan raye..so really full my stomach with free stuff..hehe..best sgt..n also we have a WORLD HEART DAY here..we r just a volunter..i'll upload the photo of that later..not in mood rite now..

finally it come out..n i feel what i feel during my 1st year on 1st exam..it hard to say..i dont know what i feel..sometimes i think i'm ok but sometimes i feel really sad n stupid..feeling really down..it is not something that i'm not expected..but somehow u r still hoping that u gonna make it..but i think it serve me right..i'm too lazy,too lepak,not study hard..it was my fault not ohthers..n dont blaming others for ur failure..sometimes u need failure in order to success..learn from mistake..jgn leke lagi..it is not time to play anymore..

i have exam ortho 2morrow..i hope this time i'm gonna make it..
i dont want to be a A student..i just to be a passed student..=)

p/s: wish me luck 4 tomorrow..

"RUGI JADI DOKTOR"

blaja susah..

keje susah

nk pencen pun susah..

rugi jadi doktor ni..

statement from a gastroentrology surgeon in HRPZ2..

that what i told my sister..and also my cousin..but she is so stuborn..

so let her be..let her feel the 'joy'..

hahahaha..

another 6 month?????

a few minute ago..
at the end of the exam with the coolest prof ever..huhu..she got honest feedback from him

examiner: i think u perform very well in clinical part..u manage to give a good comments..good..
student : (happy)
examiner: but u fail in practical part.this is very important..never guess or u'll kill the baby..do u want to extand for 6 month or u want to catch up??
student: i try to catch up..
examiner: are u sure??do u think u can catch up??or u need to change ur study method??
student: i'll change my study method and try to catch up prof..
examiner : u really need to work hard..spent ur time more in this room(treatment room)..make ur hand dirty help the nurses..do u often come come here in this 5 week??
student: i think not really prof
examiner: i can see that..what is ur next posting??
student: surgery
examiner : u need to work harder in ur next posting..ok??
student: nod..nod..=(

that is a scenario of a final year student who fail badly in practical of paediatric posting..pity her..

if u were her, how do u feel???

exam fever..

em tomorrow is my end posting exam..short case at the morning and meq in the evening..as u know my knowledge is very2 ciput coz i'm so 'rajin' to study..huhu..n now i have fever+sore throat + headache..give me a lot of time to sleep..huhu..my mom already bising2 coz i dont go to clinic..she worried about H1N1 cases nowadays..hahaha..

waaaaa..sedey..i dont study at all..today i just sleep for almost a day..except afternoon when i went to radiology to full my log book..tp sia2..x yah cite la psl radio ni..wat terbakar ati jer..huhu..i just hope that i get a very2 kind examiner+cooperative child+n i can perform well..that all i want..

wish me luck k..

HECTIC!!

i've had a hectic weekend..too tiring+serabut..i felt like a robot..less sleep..more kaffein..

friday..
i woke up early than usually i do..seyesly..than i had lunch at cafe..i'm not sure when was the last time i ate at cafe during weekend..3rd year maybe??hahaha..seyes lame gile..usually i dont eat or just mkn 'angin'..hehe..

then i went to nurul's room to do my pamplet cfcs kentut for my patient..huhu..br nk wat..cam hampeh kan..argh lantak la..haha..after lepaking with sue n nurul i went to oncall at labour room..that was my 1st time oncall in OnG..in OnG,u have to oncall from 6pm to 6am k..

so since i'm going to spend like 12 hours in labour room..i brought everything like tooth brush+paste,facial foam,small towel,deodorant,compact powder,books,mineral water..(n act there was a lot in my mind..haha)cam nk g jln2 plak..huhu..first few hours was abit boring coz all pt was on early stage..no drama..not interested..haha..em dkt kol9 br kes byk msk+kes yg mmg da nk labour..so we were busy with our pt..some are confidently wanted to conduct n some are confidently want to observe..n of course i'm the 2nd k..hehe..but when it come to stage of fully confident..i'm confidently wanted to conduct the delivery..i monitor the pt from the admission till the end..but i'm so frustrated coz i cannot conduct the delivery..waaaa sedey..doc tu wat x lyn when i say i want to do the cord traction..eiii grm ngan doc tu..huhu..=(..x kre nk grm gak..xpe la..byk lg peluang..(nada sedeh k..huhu..)

saturday..

we were too busy,too excited to conduct till we were not realized it was already 6 am..so cpt2 blk bilik nk tido..actually i'm not sleepy but felt really tired+body ache..standing for too long..i just slept for about 3 hours..coz i've already plan to go to my cfcs pt with farha..since she also wanted to visit her brother at tumpat..so we went together..u know i just ambushed my pt house..em psl pt ni..it is a very2 long story..mls nk cite..yg pntg sereng hendap ktorg berjaye gak..finally i get to meet her n settle some of my prob..some only..coz i still have 2 evidence to be done..very soon..huhu..another my last minute work..well i'm miss last min..huhu..so from bachok to tumpat to kb to tumpat to usm..a very long journey rite..smpi usm kol 630 n got msg from nurul..ajak kuar mkn..since my rent car end at 10pm,we went to tesco after maghrib..eating n shopping settle at 1030..

n now i still bloging..huhu..

i think i'm going to sleep late again tonite coz i've just took another kaffein..i thought i've a presentation tomorrow..n actually it is on monday..penat jer serabut..*sigh*..

silence

it been a long time since my last post rite..so many thing to do..huhu..for this a long silence a few thing had happen..

• i'm now in OnG posting..my last posting..time is flying really fast..in 6 more week i will end my 4th year..i hope i can pass all my posting..can't wait to CUTI!!!!walaupun kejap je..=(
• i have pass my medical posting!!actually all my group members pass..i'm so relieced coz my MCQ is terrible..x penah tembak bodoh witout tgk soalan like in medical..i use to tembak-menembak..but a clever one..huhu..
• this one is the important one..MAKE AN ATTENTION EVERYONE!!i'm now selling a shawls..hehehe..i have a plain and also corak2 shawls..the price is very cheap..n the materials is aesy to wear n of course beatiful..huhu..interested??u now where to find me..or just msg and i'll find u..

panic atack

now i'm having

1. palpitation
2. sweating
3. tachypnoiec
4. choking sensation(ni mmg slalu pun)
5. dizzy

full fill criteria A, 4 out of 13 symptoms..am i??

i'm having PANIC ATACK!!!

i'm panic coz i've exam this evening..

don't know what to study..more panic!!!

relax...breathing..kembung perut..kecut perut..huuuuuuu...

p/s: wish me luck everyone..

I HATE CFCS....

KENTUT BACIN......

GRRRRRRRRR...

adverse caffein reaction

waaaaa...
x leh tdo....ni mst sbb mnun nescafe 'keras' + kopi..
konon nk stay up coz nk study..bg energetic..

waaaaa....
esok exam..study pun x nsk da..
otak da penat..tp mt x pnt..
esok exam jd zombi la...
this is also adverse drug rxtn la kan..
unwanted effect of the drug....
i want to sleeppppppp.........

p/s:sape nk volunter bg saye tiru?????

ngantuknyerrr..

huh..what am i doing rite now..

at 5 am when most people sdp berdengkur..

blk oncall td pnt giler..konon nk tido jap..ask my cik abg suh kjt after 30 min..n i think u can guess what happen next..i woke up 3.30 am..teringat solat yg blum disempurnakan..pastu crk psl keje IDA..then now ttgu subuh..bgs x..

mate ngtk tp kalo tido konpem xbgn..report x wat lg..satu huruf pun x type lg ni..arggh..mlsnye..x tau nk amik case ape..dr duk bloging ni baik wat report kan..tp kalo name nye noddy,mmg bdk pemalas..huhu..

ngantuk...zzzzz

i got A!!!

waaa..

i got A..my first A in 4th year..in ORL posting..em feel so happy..my mama also very2 happy..coz my prev2 posting i alwayz get lowest among other..almost lowest la..my result always ckp2 mkn..

so at least this result will encourage me to do better..bring me up again..hrp2 nye result best camni akan istiqamah la hndaknye..

despite other depressing thing now(No money)..at least this make me smile..huhu..

so i better study now rather than blogging i suppose..huhu..

p/s:sya aku cilok gamba ko..halal ek..hehe..=)

hai2 ORL,bye2 oftal

hati ku senang bangat..exam oftal da abis..finally..huhu..walaupun jawab ntah pape exam clinical td kan..yg penting da lepas da..so just look forward no turning back..hehe..

n welcome to ORL posting..for 3 weeks..new things..many things to learn..in just 3 week..hope this will be another interesting posting to go..chaiyuk!!

p/s:best gile smlm dpt kua ngan nurul ngan sya..just like old time..huhu..best bangat..pasni kt kua shopping plak ek..the real one..hehe..=P

i'm falling in love

*sigh*..i'm never feel like this before..i'm really2 falling in love..huh i hope this feeling will last forever or at least as far as i'm a madical student..what??ya la..i'm falling in love in oftalmology posting..hehehe..btul la kate sya dr mate turun ke ati..huhu..i never feel happy like this morning during our clinic session..previous posting,i hate clinic giler..so boring..nothing much to do..just tercongok denga what patient complaining..n if i'm lucky i can get interesting finding from examine the pt..but most of the time we or better said me, just standing there being a good observer..hahaha..u know i'm not a kind of proactive student like others..n x saba2 nk blk..dtg pun sbb attendance jer..ble abis lege giler..huhu..

totally difference with oftal..syok sgt sampai x sedar da kol 2 lbh..seriusly,if we don't have any class this afternoon maybe ktorg duk je stu smpai ptg..hehehe..it was really enjoyable esp if u can do oftalmoscope plus u get the finding..mmg best la..i feel like to lompat2 kalo jmp finding yg menarik2 ni..tp x patut la kan..very unethical..huhu..n extra syok coz our doctor is very kind..everytime we ask anything..even the Q seem 'kurg bijak' he will answer just like that..xde la kene tny balik kan..(like other doc in other posting)huhu..he teach us alot..huh..i hope i have more time for clinic..but unfortunately we have only 2 session general clinic + 1 laser clinic for every group..da la oftal posting 3 mggu jer..why ar nice thing will not last long..=(

welcome to oftalmology..

today is my first day in oftal posting..so far so good..everything seem to be very interesting although this is going to be very compac posting..nothing much we have learn today..since this our first day,so it is like an orientation day la..we had learn how to take history taking which is a little bit diff and also learn how to use direct oftalmoscope..from theory part, seem to be very easy like mkn kacang..but when it comes to practical part it is very though..this evening we have a hands on session on oftalmoscope..we have to divide ourself in four group..and each group should have at least 2 volunter to dilate their pupil..so that everybody can practice easily..

unfortunately, i'm the choosen one since my eyes is normal,not using lens or glasses..actually it is dilated using LA and myadrcil (if im not mistaken) eyes drop..at first, of course im scared..but then it was ok la..not painful pun just a litlle bit discomfort and blurred..i remember when first we have to close the light, i feel like pelik gile..coz it was really obvious i can felt my one eye is bigger than the other one..until now my right eye is still blurred..especially under bright light..because normally your pupil will constricted in the bright light..the effect is lasted until 6 hours..so around 9pm i should be back to normal..but now i have to use my left eye n closed the right eye baru bleh nmpak clear..so x leh study la..hahahaha..

the best part is.. today i can see clearly aroud 4 pupil..i can appereciate the disk,cup disk ratio,and also blood vessels..so happy..hehehe..thanks to my cooperative friends..huhu..

p/s:ade gamba nk upload..tp tenet benggong.next time eh..

lega..

huh..finally..im so relieve..da abis exam..walaupun exam cam hampeh..i don care coz im done..huhu..dis is the end of ortho posting..this 2 week was really2 serabut and busy..bese la end of posting..br nk kalut wat report..full the log book..study last minute for exam..and plus kn wat seminar for this week..so many thing to be done.. and finally its over..for this posting la..de same cycle will start again with next posting..my next posting is oftalmology..first week men2,blur..smpai 5 week..n then final week br nak kelam kabut..em oftal have only 3 week..so i have only 2 week to play2..huhu..bosan la hidup camni..*sigh*

but actually i love orthopaedic posting..i love doing POP to patient,i love doing dressing and i love oncall at A&E..i love everything la..huhu..i hope i can be ortho surgeon..emmm???

bye2 ortho..no more smelly diabetic foot..sob3..huhu