OKB

i got a phone call from my mom..

mama: along watpe,mama call asyik x dpt..

me : owh..henset xde bateri la ma..sori..hehe..nape ma??

mama:xde saje je..mama nk g amik angah ni..

me: owh aah..angah blk hr ni..jeles nye..nk blk gak..

mama: tau x..angah da jdk org kaye skang..OKB..jpa die br msk ari ni..

me: ha???ye ke..cptnye..yg hr tu pun br jer msk..mn aci..

mama: aah die tgh kaye la tu..nnt along da miskin bleh la wat loan kat dia..haha..

moral of the story.. i'm so jeles at her coz i'm a bit kering rite now..still using my own scolarship not pa n ma bank..but i'm afraid if i dont get my jpa soon,im gonna end up using 'pa n ma'..i wonder where all my money gone..i'm not a shopaholic like dulu2..it been a while since we go shopping i think..i mean a true shopping..hehe..n i didnt go on vacation..but still sengkeng..

i think i spent a lot at food..seriously..i eat a lot lately..i feel hungry all the time..n my mouth cant stop mengunyah..for me i think it's okay to spent money on food rather than other thing..but some people there are so berkira n kedekut..they only eat at certain restaurant because it cheap eventhough x sedap..n they even bising kalo krm mknn kat org n mknn tu mhl(bese je tp more than their expectation)..just dont understand this kind of people..saving n kedekut is 2 different thing ok..saving is good..but sometimes nak gak mkn sedap2..skl sekale..rasenye x slh..nak watpen berkire..nk isi perut sendiri gak maa...hahaha..no offense ok..this is just my opinion..

i just wish to receive my scholarship soon..$$$$$$$

ABNORMAL

this is my 2nd week in besut for my distric posting a.k.a family and community medicine posting..i love besut so much..i mean i really feel like home here..coz we can cook what ever food we want to eat..surronded by people u love..betul2 cm zmn hostel dolo2..bgn pagi mengokol sejuk nk mati..best giler..i want to be here longer can i??huhu..tomorrow we have to go back to usm..so boring plus xde air..bosan bergande2..*sigh*

today we go to the lab in KK besut..to fullfileed our log book 'terchenta'..the staf was really kind (in fact all their staf are frenly and kind, not like Usm..no offense)..he explain everything and let us do the test and blood taking..as one of our requirement, we have to attach an abnormal result for urine and blood test..we have manage to get one pt with positive finding..n the staf help us print the result for each one of us..hehe..but we dont get any abnormal blood result..

unfortunately n suddenly i've become the pt..they decide to took my blood n my best buddy sya did it coz usually i'm a bit anemic..seb bek dpt..huhu..n bende yg jrg2 berlaku, i wish i'm anemic that time vs i wish i'm normal everytime i want to donate my blood..2 diffrent wishes..haha..n happy to say my Hb level is below normal=ABNORMAL..konon2 nye..for the sake of log book bangang i'm willingly give my hand to be poke..being in medical school make me done a lot of crazy n stupid thing.. a thing that u never thought before..

n beside my ABNORMAL blood test result, we've been suprised my another ABNORMAL result..this evening, we observe a stafnurse did the rapid HIV test..so cm bese we just stand there watching n be a good observer..huhu..n there's one couple who had been married in Thai n decide to 'remarried' here legally..the husband is IVDU and on methadone prog for almost 1 year if i'm not mistaken..prior to the test the couple seem nervous especially the wife since their knew the risk..the husband had done the test 3 times and pass all the test including this time..which mean he is negative.. for the moment..n when it comes to the wife, i saw a 2 lines in the kit..but i'm not really sure what it mean..i know 1 line is negative..n 2 lines is postitive..but the moment i saw it i was like..does positive really loke like that..i'm speechless at that time esp when i saw the nurse's face..

n it was a positive result..the step: if the screning turn to be positive u have to repeat the test by ELISA to confirm the result..positive screening can be false positive,however the rapid HIV test is 95% accurate..it is kind of weird how come the husband who is IVDU is negative n turn to be the wife is +ve..it can happen..anything is possible..kete pun bleh jth dlm KB mall..so anything is possible..i'm not going to judge..but the thing is i cant stop myself to think..how would u feel if the wife is u..i keep thinking about how their future might be..coz the pt is pregnant right now..how's the baby..the family members reaction..the community stigma..i just cannot imagine..i try to confort the pt but instead my eyes is bergenang..sebak..it make me realize that life is too short..one second u were normal n the next second u were told to be ABNORMAL..

BORING..

just a few days before we have an anaes exam which mean the end of boredness...haha..
no offense..i just dont feel 'into' anaes..even there are alot to learn.. i just cant enjoy it..for me i think it is a boring posting..sorry to said..huhu..

i miss A&E so so much.. i miss the environment..the enthusiastic to learn..the very,very good doctors..the kind nurses n MA.. i miss everything..seriously..i have never been so exciting n x nak blk during oncall except A&E..i can stand for 8-9 hours in that super cold room..coz i love it..huh..i miss it..=(

jalan2 to kuantan..

last 2 week..i went to kuantan..uiam to visit my sis there..plus jln2..hehe..tp x puas sbb kjp sgt..i just stay 1 nite at her room..i should went last week since we have 3 days weekend..huhu..thanks to angah who spent a lot for us..treat on her coz she just receive her JPA..haha..i just want to upload some pic..

kat TC

khusyuk lyan sudoku..

angah gedik

tamak..x abis..hehe..

medic school uiam..

p/s:nk g lg len kali..nk duk lm skt..tp angah kn blanja lg..bleh kan angah??hahaha..

a month ago..

hr ni genap la 31 hr berlalu..bersamaan dgn umur aku 23 thn 1 bln..bersamaan jgk sbln blog ni terbiar usang..hehe..sbln yg lalu, aku tlh menyambut hr jadiku di mane lg kalo bkn di KB mall,di noodle station..sm cm thn lps..x ksh la..sbb aku suke noodle station..haha..dan jutaan terima ksh diucapkan kpd shbt2 ku yg celebrate bersama..iaitu nurul n sya..

walaupun sdh sbb stiap kl besday je mst esk tu exam..so x leh nk wat pijama party..huhu..nway ni adelah gamba kejadian pd hr itu..hrp terhibur..sekian..hahahaha...

my besday cake..thanks a lot to nurul n sya..

my best buddy ever..sya,menu terbalik..haha..

spicy trio yg membunuh...

"noddy bysyk"..hanya kami yg phm..hehe

p/s:dikesempatan ni gak nk wish happy besday a.k.a happy belated besday kpd semua kwn2 yg celebrate besday on october..ramai sgt member2 lhr oct so x leh nk mention..tkt ade yg tertinggal..kang kck ati..hehe..n esp to farra (x lupe cume xsmpt2 nk wish,sori dear) n to abg..happy belated besday semua...*wink...wink*

Raye+openhouse..

so as i promise..here are some of my hari raye pic..i just can upload some of them..coz byk sgt..so just enjot it..

baptok,maktok and the grandchildren..only me n angah 'bunge'..haha

my family wif my grandparent

my best buddy..luv u..=P

my groupmates..only part of it..ade yg xde..

open house umah sue..

alia,nurul,sya n me..=D

PADAN MUKE

last weekend is really full with open house n jamuan raye..so really full my stomach with free stuff..hehe..best sgt..n also we have a WORLD HEART DAY here..we r just a volunter..i'll upload the photo of that later..not in mood rite now..

finally it come out..n i feel what i feel during my 1st year on 1st exam..it hard to say..i dont know what i feel..sometimes i think i'm ok but sometimes i feel really sad n stupid..feeling really down..it is not something that i'm not expected..but somehow u r still hoping that u gonna make it..but i think it serve me right..i'm too lazy,too lepak,not study hard..it was my fault not ohthers..n dont blaming others for ur failure..sometimes u need failure in order to success..learn from mistake..jgn leke lagi..it is not time to play anymore..

i have exam ortho 2morrow..i hope this time i'm gonna make it..
i dont want to be a A student..i just to be a passed student..=)

p/s: wish me luck 4 tomorrow..